Insane Random Ramblings

But I am so not ready to really sign up yet. I have had to make a account to poke around the site but I’m not ready to add friends or create a full profile just yet. I did notice that quite a few of my family members are on there. My cousin who has one of those great healthcare it jobs is on there. He gets to update his page from work since he’s in IT. I mean who better to get around a firewall than the IT guy?

Anyway, I’ll probably spend a little time on the site this weekend seeing who’s who and what’s what. Who knows, maybe I’ll actually start posting myself.

I told her the story about running into my old friend and how I was kicking myself for not getting his number. She was so mad at me cause she’s been plotting on sending out wedding invitations for a while. Yeah she’s tryna get rid of me. First she asked if I had his name and I said no. I know his first name but he probably doesn’t remember mine. Then she asked where he worked and I told her the story about the company he works for. She asked for the name and I said “iono”.

She told me that I’ve been on the sidelines so long that my mind wasn’t working correctly. Then she suggested that I hang out in the area that I saw him in and see if I can “accidently on purpose” run into him again. After I told her that he had a coffee in his hand, she said I should sit in the coffeeshop nursing a single cup of coffee all day while reading the free local paper.

She’s a howl which is why I told her the story. While I knew she would get on my case, I knew she would make me laugh and feel better about the situation. Now if I can just figure out how to bump into him again…..hmmmm. Hey a girl’s gotta try!

You know how there’s a situation that you’re not in the middle of but people want to ask you about it anyway? It’s not quite like when someone asks you whether they should buy the best acne treatment on the market and you try to give them a diplomatic answer. In the back of your mind you’re thinking “Yeah crater face”, but in reality you don’t want to say it out loud. Like I said, it’s not quite like that but it’s pretty close.

Hopefully the situation resolves itself without any sort of input from me. I hate tension and confusion and I don’t want my name in the middle of any of it. Especially since I’m not even directly involved.

I talked to my friend last night and she’s finally going back to school. All I can say is it’s about time! We’ve been trying to convince her to go back to school for several years but she’s always come up with an excuse or treated something like it was more important than school. She finally saw the light that she’s not going to get anywhere at her job without getting some kind of degree. And it’s not like she makes a lot of money so she really needs to finish school.

Now we have to help her get through it. I’m just glad that I’m done with school right now because I couldn’t do my work and help her with hers too.

I was talking to my friend last night and she was telling about one of her “Facebook friends”. It’s someone she doesn’t know in real life but that she met on the website. I asked her if she had gotten a computer and she said no. She has one of those Palm phones and she used that to start her account. Then she told me about all of my old coworkers who were on FB. Some of them I don’t miss talking to at all but I wouldn’t mind catching up with some of the others.

I’m not saying that I’m the most tech-savvy person that I know but wow, I can’t believe everyone seems to have a page but me. I think I may have to breakdown and create a page or something. It just stinks that my computer is acting up right now. It will be hard to keep something updated that I can’t get to because the computer is slow. I don’t know if it’s the system memory or what that’s causing my computer to run like this but it’s super slow right now. Sometimes I can only be online for a few minutes and only 3 pages will load.

Hopefully I’ll get a new computer soon because I need to get with the times.

It seems like I’ve been to a ton of these in the past year. In reality this will only be the 2nd one. But I do have another friend that’s also in the market to buy a house. I have some things that I can use as gifts but for this next one I’ll probably have to go buy something. It won’t be anyhing expensive like a bell tv, but I will get something off of her wish list. I know she wants new bathroom accessories and there is a whole list of kitchen items that she wants.

I don’t like to shop for myself but I love to shop for other people.

My friend is really going through it right now. She’s overweight by a lot and that contributes to a lot of her problems but she’s also diabetic which is major. She doesn’t have a good healthplan like bcbsnc and right now she really needs it. Somehow her plan (evil UPMC) got changed and her insulin went from $12.50 for 2 weeks to $65. It’s not open enrollment and her family status hasn’t changed. I think someone typed in the wrong social security number and changed her plan by mistake.

For now she has to wait until the company finishes their “investigation” to get her old rates back. And it’s not like she has any choice but to kick out the extra money. It’s a crummy situtation all around.

One of my friends offered me some of her old clothes. She’s pregnant now and still hasn’t lost the weight from her last pregnancy. She doesn’t anticipate fitting back into her clothes for quite some time. She also just moved so she wanted to get rid of some of her things to clear up space. The clothes that she gave me were going to get thrown away if I had said no. I suggested that she take them to Goodwill or something instead but she said no so I said that I would take them.

I’m not opposed to wearing someone elses clothes and I really apprectiate that she thought of me. However I have issues with hand me downs since I was a kid. It’s a weird feeling that I get that makes me feel like a charity case or something. I guess growing up poor leaves you with weird notions and feelings about things.

I just feel like I should always say yes even when it’s something that I don’t really want. I didn’t want to seem rude or act like I thought I was “too good” for her clothes. I just need to practice saying no without sounding like a snot. It’s not something that I’m comfortable with though.

Of course not but sometimes it seems that way. I’ve been talking to one of my friends and we’ve been catching up on some of our childhood friends and enemies. Most people are like us, doing ok. Good jobs, benefits, some have families, homes, etc., etc.. I like hearing that. I don’t care if someone is doing better than me or not. Just hearing that everything is going good is nice to hear.

Then there are the people who aren’t doing so good. Mostly it’s bad choices on their part. Some of the same people my age are strung out on drugs or alcohol bad. They’ve been that way since we were all young too which is sad. You figure at some point these people would grow up but they haven’t. It’s pretty sad but they are exactly the people I wanted to get away from when I moved.

It’s not like my life is perfect or even peaches n cream. I have issues and struggles like everybody else. But you gotta know when to put on your big girl panties, deal with it and keep it movin.

I just wish I could get that point across to other people.

It’s not for another couple of weeks but I need to start shopping now. I wanted to go in with a couple of people and get a big present like one of those neat strollers that I’ve seen. I saw one for $80.00. No one wants to do that though. I don’t know why, it’s a nice stroller. I love the color and it will hold the baby until he’s over a year. The baby will get a ton of use from it. I don’t know if they want to go cheaper or what. I don’t think that’s too much money split before 3 or 4 people. But that’s just me. I don’t tend to skimp on gifts.

Since I can’t find anyone to do that with me, I’ll just look around and see if they have brand of clothes that she wants. I’ll have to ask her again which one she wants. I think she said Halo but I’m not sure. I’ll confuse her though by asking her about the bedding set that she wants and then switch it to clothes. She’ll be so confused that she’ll just start blurting out answers.

I really want her to be surprised and like her gifts.