Insane Random Ramblings

I talked to my friend last night and she’s finally going back to school. All I can say is it’s about time! We’ve been trying to convince her to go back to school for several years but she’s always come up with an excuse or treated something like it was more important than school. She finally saw the light that she’s not going to get anywhere at her job without getting some kind of degree. And it’s not like she makes a lot of money so she really needs to finish school.

Now we have to help her get through it. I’m just glad that I’m done with school right now because I couldn’t do my work and help her with hers too.

I was talking to my friend last night and she was telling about one of her “Facebook friends”. It’s someone she doesn’t know in real life but that she met on the website. I asked her if she had gotten a computer and she said no. She has one of those Palm phones and she used that to start her account. Then she told me about all of my old coworkers who were on FB. Some of them I don’t miss talking to at all but I wouldn’t mind catching up with some of the others.

I’m not saying that I’m the most tech-savvy person that I know but wow, I can’t believe everyone seems to have a page but me. I think I may have to breakdown and create a page or something. It just stinks that my computer is acting up right now. It will be hard to keep something updated that I can’t get to because the computer is slow. I don’t know if it’s the system memory or what that’s causing my computer to run like this but it’s super slow right now. Sometimes I can only be online for a few minutes and only 3 pages will load.

Hopefully I’ll get a new computer soon because I need to get with the times.

It seems like I’ve been to a ton of these in the past year. In reality this will only be the 2nd one. But I do have another friend that’s also in the market to buy a house. I have some things that I can use as gifts but for this next one I’ll probably have to go buy something. It won’t be anyhing expensive like a bell tv, but I will get something off of her wish list. I know she wants new bathroom accessories and there is a whole list of kitchen items that she wants.

I don’t like to shop for myself but I love to shop for other people.

My friend is really going through it right now. She’s overweight by a lot and that contributes to a lot of her problems but she’s also diabetic which is major. She doesn’t have a good healthplan like bcbsnc and right now she really needs it. Somehow her plan (evil UPMC) got changed and her insulin went from $12.50 for 2 weeks to $65. It’s not open enrollment and her family status hasn’t changed. I think someone typed in the wrong social security number and changed her plan by mistake.

For now she has to wait until the company finishes their “investigation” to get her old rates back. And it’s not like she has any choice but to kick out the extra money. It’s a crummy situtation all around.

One of my friends offered me some of her old clothes. She’s pregnant now and still hasn’t lost the weight from her last pregnancy. She doesn’t anticipate fitting back into her clothes for quite some time. She also just moved so she wanted to get rid of some of her things to clear up space. The clothes that she gave me were going to get thrown away if I had said no. I suggested that she take them to Goodwill or something instead but she said no so I said that I would take them.

I’m not opposed to wearing someone elses clothes and I really apprectiate that she thought of me. However I have issues with hand me downs since I was a kid. It’s a weird feeling that I get that makes me feel like a charity case or something. I guess growing up poor leaves you with weird notions and feelings about things.

I just feel like I should always say yes even when it’s something that I don’t really want. I didn’t want to seem rude or act like I thought I was “too good” for her clothes. I just need to practice saying no without sounding like a snot. It’s not something that I’m comfortable with though.

Of course not but sometimes it seems that way. I’ve been talking to one of my friends and we’ve been catching up on some of our childhood friends and enemies. Most people are like us, doing ok. Good jobs, benefits, some have families, homes, etc., etc.. I like hearing that. I don’t care if someone is doing better than me or not. Just hearing that everything is going good is nice to hear.

Then there are the people who aren’t doing so good. Mostly it’s bad choices on their part. Some of the same people my age are strung out on drugs or alcohol bad. They’ve been that way since we were all young too which is sad. You figure at some point these people would grow up but they haven’t. It’s pretty sad but they are exactly the people I wanted to get away from when I moved.

It’s not like my life is perfect or even peaches n cream. I have issues and struggles like everybody else. But you gotta know when to put on your big girl panties, deal with it and keep it movin.

I just wish I could get that point across to other people.

It’s not for another couple of weeks but I need to start shopping now. I wanted to go in with a couple of people and get a big present like one of those neat strollers that I’ve seen. I saw one for $80.00. No one wants to do that though. I don’t know why, it’s a nice stroller. I love the color and it will hold the baby until he’s over a year. The baby will get a ton of use from it. I don’t know if they want to go cheaper or what. I don’t think that’s too much money split before 3 or 4 people. But that’s just me. I don’t tend to skimp on gifts.

Since I can’t find anyone to do that with me, I’ll just look around and see if they have brand of clothes that she wants. I’ll have to ask her again which one she wants. I think she said Halo but I’m not sure. I’ll confuse her though by asking her about the bedding set that she wants and then switch it to clothes. She’ll be so confused that she’ll just start blurting out answers.

I really want her to be surprised and like her gifts.

Tomorrow is my last day in the area that I work in now. On Monday I start my new job. I won’t be in the same building. I won’t even be in the same area. Right now I work in the Strip District and on Monday I’ll be in our downtown building. Once I start the new job, I won’t see any of my current coworkers because our work paths won’t cross.

Today they threw me a party. We have a mini food fest going on right now. We had breakfast and lunch food. We also have a boatload of snack foods. My friend Jennifer knows that I love cookies so she made me some homemade Ginger Snaps. I really didn’t want to share them with everyone else but I did. I also had Spinach dip and donuts.

Although I can’t wait to start my new job, I’m really going to miss everyone here.

That really annoys me. It seems like some people can always get their hands on spare cash and within days have nothing to show for it. One of my friends is like this. She can always get extra cash but she just wastes it. Last year she got over $2k from stock options from the company she works for. She got the money in 3 installments because it was 3 different disbursements.

With the first two she went and got tattoos that was almost half of the disbursement. Then she paid a few bills and wasted the rest of the money going out with her friends. She also had to pay back more than one cash advance that she had taken out. Then she complains because she wants to buy a computer and go back to school. Needless to say she’s not in school this semester because she couldn’t afford $500 for 2 classes. Major eyeroll there.

I shudder to think how she’s going to waste her tax refund. I wish I could get my hands on half the cash she does.

Actually the PC term we use is WinterFest. Either way, I’m not participating in the event at all. I hate it here so much. My coworkers, supervisor, manager, just everyone is getting on my nerves. I’ve been sitting at my desk trying to be quiet for the last few days. It seems like the more I try to stay quiet, the more people want to talk to me. It’s pretty annoying.

My friend is avoiding me. I emailed him today and he hasn’t emailed me back yet. We usually talk all day long. I know why he’s avoiding me though. I have been pretty witchy towards him. There is a reason though. I’ll just say that there are outside influences on our friendship that’s making it hard to maintain.

Still though, he’s acting shady towards me and there’s no need for that. I mean really if you say you’re gonna do something, then do it! Don’t just leave me hanging and then the next time we talk you act like nothing happened.

Sigh, tomorrow is another day. I just hope it’s a better one at that.