Insane Random Ramblings

Most of my posts lately have been a little shorter than usual. And if you notice, I haven’t really talked about John much lately. They’re pretty much tied together if you didn’t guess. We haven’t broken up but we’re not really doing all that great either. We haven’t spoken to each other or seen each other in a couple of weeks. We also haven’t spent any quality time together in almost a month.

I don’t know what’s going on between us but it’s affecting almost everything else I do. I’m trying to sit that to the side and live life as normally as possible though. I can’t be moping around either. School starts next week and my goal, as always, is a grade of no less than a B in my class. That means no distractions.

I don’t know if this will affect my short stories though. I’ll still try to sit aside some time to write. It’s supposed to be cathartic. Whatever. I guess I’ll try it and see.

Yesterday I had to mail one of my bills. It was on a schedule payment from my bank account but I decided to pay it from a different account. Anyway the bill isn’t due until the 21st so it wasn’t late or anything. I made sure I grabbed the letter to mail when I went downstairs to go to the Post Office to check my mail. We have a mail receptacle in our building where mail is picked up twice a day. My letter would be picked up at 5pm.

Like I said, my bill isn’t due for another 10 days. So why am I an airhead? Because I went to the post office. I could have taken the letter with me and mailed it there! I didn’t even think about it until after I dropped the letters in the box. Talk about a duh moment!

We had a pretty mild winter for the most part. Until the last 3 weeks or so. Ever since that stupid Ground Hog Phil saw his dumb shadow, our weather has gone wacky. Yeah I know it’s crazy to blame the weather on a rodent, but I need to blame somebody.

It’s snowed 3 or 4 times in the past 2 weeks including today. At least the snow didn’t stick today. But I still don’t want to see it. I’m sitting here thinking about summer and sitting on patio furniture sipping Mai Tai’s. Then I get a dose of reality when I look out of the window and it’s raining, snowing or hailing.

I just washed my car on Saturday and it’s dirty again. I knew it was going to rain before I washed the car, but it was so filthy that I couldn’t wait. I had to get that road salt off of the car because that can rust your car if you don’t get it off. At least I have a garage now so the car will mostly stay clean.

I guess I should get back to work since my boss is giving the entire office the evil eye.

We didn’t do anything this weekend. Yesterday we went out to get something to eat. As usual we couldn’t decide where to eat so we just headed to a local mall and got Chinese food. I had Bourbon Chicken with rice and John had some kind of Lemon Chicken with lo mein noodles. My rice was really moist but John’s noodles were dry. I had some extra soy sauce but he just ate it with the chicken.

After we ate we just browsed around the mall some. I went in and out a the shoe store without trying anything on. I didn’t go into the Gap either. We looked at video games and  original movie posters among other things. In the end, we decided not to buy anything and left the mall. I think the fact that it was so crowded really discouraged us from shopping.

Once we left, we drove around for an hour or two just driving and talking. Then we went and picked up some stuff for me to take to work and came home. Today we just sat around and watched tv all day. Like I said, this has been a very lazy weekend.

I have a lot to say but I am unable to articulate my thoughts right now. I have a lot that I’m doing my best to deal with. I’ve been successful for the most part but I’ve also had my moments. Right now I am so tired I’m ready to just fall out and go to sleep. Maybe I’ll write more tomorrow.

My hair that is. I usually just pull my hair back into a ponytail and not worry about it. Today I actually parted it and made it two pig tails (I didn’t have to go out in public). I grabbed one of my makeup mirrors to make sure my part was straight and what was the first thing I saw? Yup, a gray hair. Arggghhhhh!

I knew I had gray hair. I usually pull the ones in the front and on the sides out because I can see those. The ones in the back I usually don’t worry about because I can’t see them. But I know they’re there and I hate it. So do I dye my hair or not? I’m not sure.

I love the color of my hair. It’s a sandy brown color with these red highlights. If I don’t put any hair care products in my hair, it’s more reddish looking. It’s not like I can replicate that with dye. I can go a little lighter or a little darker but I don’t know what it will look like and that scares me. Then again the alternative is the gray. Yuck. I guess I’ll be looking at dye soon.